how will i decorate?

i am overwhelmed with the number of weddings i am involved with between now and the first of july.... there are creative things i need to come up with to make every event unique... every gift meaningful...

does God ever feel like we are requiring that He come up with new and unique all the time? am i ever disappointed with Him when He doesn't decorate or gift me like i expect or hope for?

let me rest in You. be mindful of all you have done....

should i disciple?

today i taught a class on social media to a curious group of people.... everyone has a twitter account... i thought i was ready but what i realized was that there is no way to teach people something like that in a group.

it taught me something about discipleship... it must be done in small groups or it is confusing and stressful for everyone.

who should i be discipling?

touch Him on purpose

i am wearing a blue cord... i have added charms and beads.... all of them are to remind me about the woman with the issue of blood. she knew Jesus was her last and only hope. she came into a mob crowding close to this prophet. she did not do this because everyone else was doing it or because she thought she should. her only purpose in coming close was to touch the hem of his robe... the edge of his prayer shawl.. the fringe... just one part.

i want to come close to You with the purpose of touching You, Lord. You are my only hope of being whole.....

i choose....

God thank you for your faithfulness. thank you for your sacrifice.....

i choose You.

i AM weak

today i have learned that i am definitely not in control. i woke up praying that God would help me see Him... i think i spent so much time thinking about what others would think of me i lost sight of Him.

when i am weak He is strong. let me rest in You.

inadequate discipline

today it was all about me. that is never a good thing. i found that discipline is not easy.... i am not even capable of maintaining my focus. 

You gave Your dignity, Your very life for me. i cannot even focus on you properly. i am so sorry.  

i need discipline

i get too busy.... it makes me want to speed through even my quiet time.

God help me slow down and pay attention--not because of something bad that happens but because i love You.... give me a heart for your discipline.