Wednesday, March 3, 2010

how will i decorate?

i am overwhelmed with the number of weddings i am involved with between now and the first of july.... there are creative things i need to come up with to make every event unique... every gift meaningful...

does God ever feel like we are requiring that He come up with new and unique all the time? am i ever disappointed with Him when He doesn't decorate or gift me like i expect or hope for?

let me rest in You. be mindful of all you have done....

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

should i disciple?

today i taught a class on social media to a curious group of people.... everyone has a twitter account... i thought i was ready but what i realized was that there is no way to teach people something like that in a group.

it taught me something about discipleship... it must be done in small groups or it is confusing and stressful for everyone.

who should i be discipling?

Sunday, February 28, 2010

touch Him on purpose

i am wearing a blue cord... i have added charms and beads.... all of them are to remind me about the woman with the issue of blood. she knew Jesus was her last and only hope. she came into a mob crowding close to this prophet. she did not do this because everyone else was doing it or because she thought she should. her only purpose in coming close was to touch the hem of his robe... the edge of his prayer shawl.. the fringe... just one part.

i want to come close to You with the purpose of touching You, Lord. You are my only hope of being whole.....

Saturday, February 27, 2010

i choose....

God thank you for your faithfulness. thank you for your sacrifice.....

i choose You.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

i AM weak

today i have learned that i am definitely not in control. i woke up praying that God would help me see Him... i think i spent so much time thinking about what others would think of me i lost sight of Him.

when i am weak He is strong. let me rest in You.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

inadequate discipline

today it was all about me. that is never a good thing. i found that discipline is not easy.... i am not even capable of maintaining my focus. 

You gave Your dignity, Your very life for me. i cannot even focus on you properly. i am so sorry.  

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

i need discipline

i get too busy.... it makes me want to speed through even my quiet time.

God help me slow down and pay attention--not because of something bad that happens but because i love You.... give me a heart for your discipline.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

"life, the universe and everything"

do i treat the life God as given me as a feast of celebration? do i share with others? do i taste all God has offered me and draw others into the feast? i have got to do better.

God redeemed me.... He is the Redeemer of "life, the universe and everything." He has not redeemed it so i can sit around an look at it.... He planned for it to be a feast in the best sense of the word.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

let me trust you Lord

today i discovered how little i truly trust God. i caught myself worrying.... consumed with it. 

God loves me and will never forsake me. i should not worry about what might happen... i cannot control it.

let me rest in You Lord. 

Friday, February 19, 2010

refreshed by living water

i want to refresh those around me.... how can do that without being refreshed myself. 

You have died so i can draw close to You. You arose from the dead so i could know Your power. is that refreshing? only You can give me that kind of life.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

why do we do the things we do?

today i have done things i regret and things i am glad i did... most of it has to do with my words. are you surprised? 

i have to examine my motives better. i want to glorify God but i sure don't act like it. 

God is good all the time... thankfully

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Ash Wednesday 2010

this year i am observing lent. i missed it last year.... a lot. so here is my list of disciplines for lent.

i am keeping a daily journal... even sundays. i know that technically sunday is not a part of the 40 days but i have realized that my sabbath should be given back to the Father with joy for this season. Jesus said that sabbath was made for man.... He gave it to me and now i truly give it back.

i am going to blog the highlights of my daily journal. this is important for reasons i cannot mention here.

i am going to look for God every day.

so here it is. God show me who You are really.... who I am.... who You want me to be.